You describe it so well my friend. I wish you weren’t in this place right now but as much as it is inevitable it always comes back, it is too that you will work through it and find yourself in a less painful place in time. We never go back, never lose the progress we have made or lessons we have learnt but I understand completely how that pain hole seems to strip all that stuff away as though you’re ’back here again’. So much love x
Kelly ♥ Your words are so comforting, thank you. I know that I never have to pretend or make things seem pretty with you, and I'm so grateful to have that space of realness. I really appreciate you saying that we never go back, or lose the progress we've made - I've been struggling with that a lot lately, because it has felt like things have slipped back and that I've lost such a lot of what I've built up, but you're right that I can't lose it completely, it's just that things have needed to shift and be stripped away right now. Always here, always loving you, friend ♥
Beautifully written, Ruth. You are beautiful, just as you are. The things that weigh us down most need to be released in order for us to thrive and grow. So if ever you feel a need to write about a topic that is weighing you down, go for it! You have a way with words that may shine some light for another to bathe in, even when the topic is coming from the darkest of spaces. I do hope you feel better and more at ease soon. There are roughly a dozen black birds (probably some sort of vulture) coasting and gliding in a spiral on the ocean breeze out the window of my office right now. I'd like to think they have some knowing of this exchange and are carrying some of the tender and weighty stuff off with them. I love you. Dawn
Thank you so much, Dawn ♥ You are so right that the things that weigh us down most need to be released in order for us to thrive and grow. It has been hard to even form it into words this time around, but I'm glad to finally have something to represent these moments for me, and whoever else needs them. I really love the idea of those birds carrying those heavy things, as light as a feather, soaring high into the sky until they evaporate. I love you ♥
Sending you much love Ruth. You always write so beautifully, even if it is a tough subject. This disease is so shit sometimes, I can't think of anything more eloquent to say than that! I'm sorry the pain is creeping up on you again. That's what I find so difficult too, is the unpredictable nature of it all. That you can never quite relax into your body or your life because it feels like that's when the pain and fatigue starts to sneak in. I'm having a similar moment as you read in my last post and I know we all experience it differently, but just know I'm there in solidarity with you and wishing you all the best. I do hope you can find some moments of rest and joy between the painful bits 💕 much love x
Thank you so much for your kind words, Amanda. I don't think there is a more eloquent way of saying that it really is just shit sometimes. I know you've been having a similar time lately, and I know how much you understand how it can impact our mental health as well - that's been really tough to handle lately. I really appreciate your words of support. I am trying to really slow down and notice the small moments of calm in my day, and I am grateful to have some things to keep my hands and mind busy with in the form of creative stuff, but it hasn't always been easy to fall back on those things either. Sending you lots of love right back to you, Amanda ♥
You describe it so well my friend. I wish you weren’t in this place right now but as much as it is inevitable it always comes back, it is too that you will work through it and find yourself in a less painful place in time. We never go back, never lose the progress we have made or lessons we have learnt but I understand completely how that pain hole seems to strip all that stuff away as though you’re ’back here again’. So much love x
Kelly ♥ Your words are so comforting, thank you. I know that I never have to pretend or make things seem pretty with you, and I'm so grateful to have that space of realness. I really appreciate you saying that we never go back, or lose the progress we've made - I've been struggling with that a lot lately, because it has felt like things have slipped back and that I've lost such a lot of what I've built up, but you're right that I can't lose it completely, it's just that things have needed to shift and be stripped away right now. Always here, always loving you, friend ♥
Beautifully written, Ruth. You are beautiful, just as you are. The things that weigh us down most need to be released in order for us to thrive and grow. So if ever you feel a need to write about a topic that is weighing you down, go for it! You have a way with words that may shine some light for another to bathe in, even when the topic is coming from the darkest of spaces. I do hope you feel better and more at ease soon. There are roughly a dozen black birds (probably some sort of vulture) coasting and gliding in a spiral on the ocean breeze out the window of my office right now. I'd like to think they have some knowing of this exchange and are carrying some of the tender and weighty stuff off with them. I love you. Dawn
Thank you so much, Dawn ♥ You are so right that the things that weigh us down most need to be released in order for us to thrive and grow. It has been hard to even form it into words this time around, but I'm glad to finally have something to represent these moments for me, and whoever else needs them. I really love the idea of those birds carrying those heavy things, as light as a feather, soaring high into the sky until they evaporate. I love you ♥
Sending you much love Ruth. You always write so beautifully, even if it is a tough subject. This disease is so shit sometimes, I can't think of anything more eloquent to say than that! I'm sorry the pain is creeping up on you again. That's what I find so difficult too, is the unpredictable nature of it all. That you can never quite relax into your body or your life because it feels like that's when the pain and fatigue starts to sneak in. I'm having a similar moment as you read in my last post and I know we all experience it differently, but just know I'm there in solidarity with you and wishing you all the best. I do hope you can find some moments of rest and joy between the painful bits 💕 much love x
Thank you so much for your kind words, Amanda. I don't think there is a more eloquent way of saying that it really is just shit sometimes. I know you've been having a similar time lately, and I know how much you understand how it can impact our mental health as well - that's been really tough to handle lately. I really appreciate your words of support. I am trying to really slow down and notice the small moments of calm in my day, and I am grateful to have some things to keep my hands and mind busy with in the form of creative stuff, but it hasn't always been easy to fall back on those things either. Sending you lots of love right back to you, Amanda ♥